Facing the Darkness

Photographer: Georgi Manolev / Model: Mira Koteva

The car alarm breaks the deafening silence in the stuffy room. It’s dark. Quiet. I am lying on the sofa in my boyfriend’s apartment, writing. Listening. Listening to the piercing sound of a car alarm in the distance and the heavy breathing coming from the other room. Darkness. All around me. And inside me. There is darkness everywhere. I feel as if I am covered in a soft blanket of grief. Grief for dreams that die. Invisibility. Here I am. Doing so much…